Anonymous said: I'll phrase it this way, so it's a little less selfish. No one wants to die alone, and many don't deserve such a death. Least of all you. You lost your father to government agents who killed him just to keep their own records clean, and you lost your mother to the resulting grief. Afterwards, you stumbled along as a hopeless, drunken gunslinger for a long period of time. Now, you've finally got a family of your own, and you deserve it. You deserve something to smile and be happy about again.
Thank you, stranger. I do appreciate what I have, especially since it wasn’t so long ago that I had nothing at all. And I appreciate those who write to me because they encouraged me to keep going when often I wanted to just give up.
And… I don’t know. It all still feels so very alien sometimes. I was so used to being alone before. Now I’ve got Pearl and Holly, and they both depend on me, and while I often worry about failing them or not being good enough, I’m glad that I have those things to worry about.
When I was a teenager I often used to lock myself away from my parents. I’d want them to leave me alone. I guess it wasn’t until they were gone that I realized how stupid that was.
I’m glad to not be alone anymore.